mY naKed Thoughts

We tag him as the Big Bro. Bellowing anyone just with his height and weight. He is a man to reckon with specially when the situation spells trouble. He looks tough and acts as one. However, I cried a river when I feel the out pouring of his meekness when I read his blog.

UNEXPECTED LIFE

They say life is hard but I didn’t  expect it would happen to mine. I have parents who always stand at my side. They never left me. I had bought highschool diploma and entered college while hooked in all vices and troubles you could ever imagine.

It was 2004 when I had a chronic disease that I suffered for two years. I blamed God, I feared I couldn’t live normally anymore. I had so many regrets. But in the end I rose again. My family had always been there supporting me, praying for my wellness. When I’m down they’re there giving me strength. I think God gave me second chance because my family loves me and I loved them too but foremost of all the reasons, is for me to heal not just my body, and my life but also my soul.

During that tumultuous time, I met the woman I want to marry. Our situations almost failed me. I’m an under grad, no work, and problems we’re attached on me. But then, in all sincerity, I prayed and asked the Lord to give this woman I loved to be my partner in life forever and I promised to offer Him my life.

Prayer moves mountains. She became my wife. God blessed us with a very cute darling son named Wade wade. I thank God and my wife for giving me a son I thought I couldn’t have. I never thought I could ever be happy as a father and a husband. I can die for my family but then I have to live also for them. Work is very hard to find in Philippines so I decided to apply abroad.

I am now in Riyadh Saudi Arabia working as truck driver. My work is never been easy. I see accidents frequently. I once sent an injured driver with a totally wrecked face in the hospital. It shudders me thinking if same thing happens to me if I drift my mind off the road when I’m driving. Life is strange in the Kingdom. We experienced a lot of trials, sufferings and pain. This is like living in hell. People can insult us any minute they want. They treated us far differently in my country. They treated us like animals, no brain at all. “Mafe Mook” as they say but I accepted their brutal hospitality because I want to give the best for my family. Whatever they do to me, I thought it as- I earned bread on that kind of treatment. No matter how physically hard the work is, nothing can compare to the loneliness I felt when I’m alone at night. I miss my family. I cried to sleep thinking of horrible things that might happen to our family because of our distance. I’m jealous, I pity my self. They don’t know how I wanted to hug them and to be with them. I want to tell them that the hardest work of an OFW is not the work at all, its living away from home.

Yes, life is very hard but with God and for my family I know I will survive. There’s no doubt I’ll be coming here again if this is the way I could make them comfortable in life. All I wanted is for my family to be respectful, helpful, loving and God-fearing. Those  are just simple words but it’s the hardest thing to do.

We don’t know the meaning of our life but as long as we’re walking in the right path, God will pave the right way.

To my big brother Ricky:

Sometimes we don’t see things coming. However, everything only makes sense when we dig deep within our hearts. Then we’ll see the reasons of every pain, laughters and tears. It will bring out the best in us. Like perfumes from crushed flowers and  wine from pressed grapes. We’ll emerge strong and better people.  Stay a blessing and a positive influence carrying out His work. We love you always!