Reflections…
Amid sandstorm I went to my fave loft, rooftop. I was disturbed and sickened with what my Physiotherapist friend has told me a while ago. I need my serenity time to think. I used to envy her. She earns almost six times bigger than my numbers. Imagine? huh! that’s enough to feed a whole lazy community!
I feel every fiber of her being is screaming, with teeth-gritting anger she said she wants to end her life. She was hurt and beaten by people she treasured. The deliberate lies made to her by her precious daughter is withering her strength. She felt betrayed. The emotional blackmail made by her husband is eating her soul leaving her paralyzed with guilt. She had worked hard for two decades in the Kingdom. Physiotherapists here need to almost carry their heavy weight arab patients. She endured it all for her family to savor the luxuries of life has offered which boils to one- Money. Which in a sudden vagaries of life’s tides now becomes invaluable to her. Everything drained like dirt in a toilet bowl.
Is life really a bitch, and we’ll all just die? die in sadness, in desparation or we’ll just literally swallow bullet so when we woke up, things will end up like we designed in our fantasies?
When I was still young and stupidity was still one of my virtue. I thought too that slashing my wrist will change everything. Indeed I was right. It awakened me on my deep slumber and made me acknowledge the reality that the label of a loser was really suited to me and that I needed change. However one thing good though that i learned during that tumultuous moment was, pain that won’t kill you will make you stronger. Pain is a great motivator of change. I recall, whenever I was hurt I wrote it on my journal. All the atrocious words and abusive conducts were written in detailed with the purpose of refreshing it vividly on my mind so as not to be forgetten when “fooling” moment comes.
Life rewards action as the old adage says. With all the insanity I had, no wonder I settled too cheaply now. But we should be aware also that not everything that we did right is the right thing to do because sometimes it just doesn’t work. Bad things can happen to good people too because they allowed it to happen.
Yesterday I sent my friend a message. Hoping it will help her so she won’t end up like journalist Ted Failon’s wife.
Facing it, always facing it,
that’s the way to get through.
face it.
-Joseph Conrad.
Geeko!! said,
thAmerica/Los_Angelesp30America/Los_Angeles04bAmerica/Los_AngelesSat, 18 Apr 2009 04:41:40 -0700 4,2008 @ 3:30 p04
Life is so complex -but it can be figured out by plain thinking,
We all know the answers - but we forget to ask questions,
No body is ever happy.
If everything goes our way wd we really be happy?? There wd always be that one thing u still want. As the laws of economics puts it - Human wants are unlimited. As we humans incapable of being content and happy?? maybe thats what makes us human…
balowen said,
thAmerica/Los_Angelesp30America/Los_Angeles04bAmerica/Los_AngelesSat, 18 Apr 2009 09:25:30 -0700 4,2008 @ 3:30 p04
Geeko! whoever u r tnx 4 droppin by pal! Indeed life is so complex however i beg to disagree that nobody is ever happy.
Being happy is neither an event nor a behaviour. If we want to be truly happy we must construct a precise definition of happiness first based on our own unique perspectives.
We need to be specific to what makes us happy or else we will never be contented as u said because we really didn’t HIT IT, or GET it right.
Remember, half of the solution to any problem lies in defining it. So u have to NAME it (ur happiness) so u can CLAIM it (ur happiness).
It’s the human in us that makes the chasing of happiness exciting.
Howard said,
thAmerica/Los_Angelesp30America/Los_Angeles04bAmerica/Los_AngelesSun, 19 Apr 2009 02:47:55 -0700 4,2008 @ 3:30 p04
Again your thoughts and feelings come thru your writing like a freight train on the loose. Great!!
the philippine daily idiot said,
thAmerica/Los_Angelesp30America/Los_Angeles04bAmerica/Los_AngelesSun, 19 Apr 2009 07:29:45 -0700 4,2008 @ 3:30 p04
Owen!
Your friend’s story (all of our stories for that matter) reminds me of dr. covey and his 10/90 rule. Hope you read about it. Sobrang ganda nito.
A version: http://www.scribd.com/doc/4521880/90-10-rule
balowen said,
thAmerica/Los_Angelesp30America/Los_Angeles04bAmerica/Los_AngelesSun, 19 Apr 2009 09:56:46 -0700 4,2008 @ 3:30 p04
Howard! tnx dear for ur sweet words.
Dok mel! i just so so so love the site!!! its really enlightening. Sometimes what we’re doing isn’t working in any way and we reasoned out that ” well, that’s just the way i am”- as i read this is the strategy of someone who is so rigidly locked on being right that they would rather lose than learn. We all just need to change.. yeah, change our reaction to every stimulus we experience.
indeed, blessed is the man who doesn’t respond to insult coz a hundred evil will just passed by him.
the philippine daily idiot said,
thAmerica/Los_Angelesp30America/Los_Angeles04bAmerica/Los_AngelesMon, 20 Apr 2009 20:08:13 -0700 4,2008 @ 3:30 p04
amen, owen. isn’t stephen covey brilliant for coming up with the 10/90 rule? From now on, i will keep this rule in mind. hope you, too.
balowen said,
stAmerica/Los_Angelesp30America/Los_Angeles04bAmerica/Los_AngelesTue, 21 Apr 2009 08:53:23 -0700 4,2008 @ 3:30 p04
i admit it’s hard to be “cool”..im kindof of warfreak sometimes
but i’ll try! hehehe!:) btw, did u really hv a clue who’s d anonymous commented in ur “rubix” post? how? heheh!..and the writers u mentioned on ..lives and letters” post..huh! they blown me away! i couldn’t even pronounce their names.lol
the philippine daily idiot said,
stAmerica/Los_Angelesp30America/Los_Angeles04bAmerica/Los_AngelesTue, 21 Apr 2009 19:56:22 -0700 4,2008 @ 3:30 p04
naku ako rin warfreak — inner warfreak. hehehe.. but we will always try. Are you into reading novels? I say you should try reading Anne Proulx’s the shipping news. sobrang metaphor-rich. not only that, the story is rich.
the philippine daily idiot said,
stAmerica/Los_Angelesp30America/Los_Angeles04bAmerica/Los_AngelesTue, 21 Apr 2009 19:58:04 -0700 4,2008 @ 3:30 p04
well i can sense from a sample of your posts you read self-helps. ako rin. lalo kay dr. covey.
balowen said,
ndAmerica/Los_Angelesp30America/Los_Angeles04bAmerica/Los_AngelesWed, 22 Apr 2009 10:28:00 -0700 4,2008 @ 3:30 p04
Tnx doc! ill try lookin for her works at Jarir here. U always recommends good materials. btw, i jst realised that i heard Dr. Covey’s rule 90/10 from my Bf’s mouth almost everyday.Di ko lang pinapansin kasi sa kakulitan niya but he always says ” asar, talo ka! ”